Monday, March 28, 2011

Listening to my HEART today.

I decided to catch up on my blog reading today.  I'm so glad I did because I was able to read this message from Kristin Armstrong's Blog (she received this enlightenment from a yoga instructor after a 20 mile run preparing for "The Boston") -

"It's time to start listening to your heart. Most of the time we listen to our heads. That's where all the noise and chatter reside. The heart speaks in a quiet whisper, yet it says the things we most need to hear. It's time to start getting quiet, and practice listening for the still, small voice of the heart. What is your heart saying to you?"

My heart tells me I can run, its always my head that messes me up.  I needed this today.  Ever since the  Pancreatic Cancer 5k run for my mom I have been on a running hiatus.  I'm sure its where I'm at in this whole dang grieving process.  It totally stinks to have to grieve when she is still here, especially when you find yourself conquering some of those levels of grief,  just to realize when she is gone you will be going through them all again.  Running has been the best medicine for me, hence why I need to get back at it!  So here I come open roads, or treadmill! lol Turning off my head and just listening to the HEART today, along with praying that mom will be ok at chemo today.  Chemo weeks are such a love/hate thing with me. 





8 comments:

Kata said...

Every part of this post speaks to my heart! It aches because of your pains, it rejoices because of the woman you are- dang you are an inspiration! and it weeps for the sadness of cancer! Ilove you girl, I'm here for you!

Nicole said...

love you erin :) you are incredible and i'm always here for you!!! (however not on an open road or treadmill, get missy for that) but i love you nonetheless <3

Missy said...

I love this and you! I'm so sorry you have to go through this all. I am so glad that you have found what will get you through it though. And I love even more that it is something I love also!
It goes without saying that I also am here for ya!!

The Foulgers said...

My dear friend, I've been thinking of you a lot lately and wondering how you are. I hope you find peace in running and know that my prayers are always with you! Love you!

anna banana said...

Love you and think of you so often! Such beautiful thoughts about listening to your heart!

Running is a great medicine, I second that!

Mikki said...

Erin, I didn't know your family was going through this. I'm so sorry. Sending my thoughts and prayers your way. You are awesome!

Marlee said...

I also look to running to help with life's problems. Best of luck to your mom I hope everything works out for the best!!

www.marleeindebt.blogspot.com

Emily Lacey said...

Your blog was next to mine in the "view next blog" and was totally what I needed today. Thanks for your reminder of the peace that resides somewhere deep inside all of us. I hope you have the peace you need - it
s there.